Personal Wholeness plan My family is my priority and what is most important to me. To be a better mom and student I need to become more engaged in life itself. I plan to really begin to become a more motivated, self-asserting, more engaged and energized me. I have not taken the time to look at myself and really think about what I am doing with my life. I believe I need to step back and take a deeper look at how I am living, loving, learning, and what kind of person I am mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically.
I have been through a lot and now its time to really take the advice of my favorite verse Romans 15:4-6 and begin learning from the past and moving on. 4 For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope. 5May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, 6so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.
This verse hits me hard because it is difficult for me to move on so that I may begin life. It reminds me not to hold onto anything and let things go because with God anything is possible. I intend to set forth goals in the physical, spiritual, mental and emotional areas of my life so that I may improve them and become a more energized and better me. Not just goals with out purpose though I am going to get others in my life involved so that I stay accountable and on top of goals. This is something I really want to achieve, I want to change the way I do things and become more engaged in life.
But I cannot do alone like they say it takes a village to raise a child. It will take God and the people he puts in my life to make this happen. Physically I am not super healthy and one of my main barriers is that I think i am already healthy enough and do not need to do anymore to improve which is not true. I do not eat breakfast every morning and if I do it usually is not something big or even that healthy. Breakfast is the most important part of the day it is what gets you going and helps you stay focused. Not eating in the morning really makes a difference during my day.
In class instead of concentrating on what is being taught I am thinking about how hungry I am and when I get to eat. To change this I need to make breakfast a priority and eat it everyday and make sure it is a healthy one. To do this I will wake up earlier and have easy healthy things to choose from such as an apple or whole grain toast and so on. So that I will be motivated to eat everyday I eat breakfast I will put away a dollar towards a pair of jeans I want. Another problem I face is lack of exercise and the ability to stay motivated to keep working out.
Exercise is rather important to not only your physical health but to your total well-being. You become not only a healthier person but also happier it is a great stress reliever and way to work out the hard day you just had. With these benefits why is it such a hard thing for me to do everyday? That is the question I ask myself and you know the real honest answer I would rather be stressed out and unhealthy than take the time from my day to work out. I need to get out of that mind set and want to be a better me.
To do this I am going to find a work out buddy who is super motivated and can help keep me on top of my work out routine. I plan to go to the gym at least once a day for an hour. Being emotionally connected to others and having good healthy relationships is important in life. This for most is an easy task it’s like tying your shoe but for the introverted shy person like me this is something I continually struggle with everyday. I am not an outgoing person so for me most of my relationships are on the surface and do not really go deep I stay hidden in my nice little bubble so that I can not get hurt.
I do not let people in easy or if at all. It is because I am afraid to get hurt and of being judged. So that I can grow as a person I need to learn to let go of that fear and open up to others. Now that I am aware of my barrier with my relationships I can work to make an effort to put myself out there and make real friends and know more than just their major and hometown. To grow relationally I have to make myself feel uncomfortable and uneasy and go up to people and say hi and just take a chance. My goal is once a day talk to a person in one of my classes that I do not know.
In doing so I hope to make new connections and get to know people here on campus. Another big step that I plan to take so that I can be more engaged relationally is to turn my acquaintances into real friends. I plan to actually be interested when they are talking and ask questions and become friendlier. I need to be open and communicate back as well and let them see a little bit of me. My fear in doing this though is that they will find something out about me and change their mind. That is also part of my goal to set that fear aside and just dive in and if they do not like me there is nothing I can do.
I believe this is the only way that I can honestly make real friends who know me for me and love me either way. Being spiritually engaged is important to your wholeness as a person because it is not just about going to church and doing the Christian thing. It is why are here? What are you doing in life and why? Who really runs your life? It is these types of questions that I myself have trouble even taking the time to think about let alone answering them. To me it is a scary thing because I know the real answers.
Part of me becoming more spiritually engaged is being able to answer those types of questions so that I can find out who I am and what I am doing in life. Then I can begin to think about God more clearly and intentionally. My problem is that I have been on a long roller coaster ride with God since about the age of two when I started going to church. My goal is decide just decide what I am going to do with my faith leave it or embrace it. I want to choose to embrace it I would not be where I am today without God he is the reason I am at George Fox he has a purpose for me.
I do not however exude that in the way I live my life because I live in a non-Christian home it is difficult for me to even be able to embrace it with out being made fun of by my siblings. Today I am going to stop caring about them and what they think I am going to make time for God so that I can be with him. That sounds hard but I plan to go to my old youth pastor so that he can help keep me accountable and be someone I can go to when I am being persecuted for my faith at home. My plan is to embrace my faith and live it out regardless of what others think.
I have to be brave and courageous; anything is possible with God. Being mentally engaged is not just about listening and paying attention in class it is also about time management and getting things done in a timely manor. I am great at listening and taking notes. I am not so good however at actually being there, more than just to get the notes and the grade. My goal for next semester intellectually is to really find deeper meaning in my classes and how it applies to my life and how I can use it to better my education and myself. To do this I am going to begin to ask deeper questions and listen to the answer.
I am going let myself be a nerd in a sense and really dive into my classes and look them see what they are really about and take honest interest them. Time management is my number one barrier and is the main reason I become stressed and have issues remembering things. I procrastinate almost always right until the very end. I remember my senior year still writing my paper the day it was due and finishing it in class. That is something I want to change in college I do not want to be stressed out and worried all the time because it is completely avoidable by just doing things in a timely manor.
To help aid me in doing so I got a planner to write down all my assignments and when they need to be turned in. Also in the planner I have set times in my day for homework so that now it is built in and I have no excuse for putting things off other than myself. To actually be able to prosper in all these areas in my life and achieve the goals that I have set for myself I need to stay accountable. I need to make sure that I am not just going through the motions and that this does not turn into just another assignment but that it can actually change my life for the better.
Everything that I have stated so far is for the better so once I begin and really start to see the difference in myself I know I will want to be accountable and not forget that working out and having to get up early are so that I may become a better healthier person. But I am not only going to rely on myself to keep me accountable I have put certain people in my life to help as well because I know at first this is not going to be an easy task for me. This whole process has really taught me a lot about myself. It has opened my eyes to things about me that I did not realize before were a problem.
It has made me see that I really need to make changes in my life and that the way I have been doing things isn’t necessarily wrong but it is not good for me. After having done all these things I hope that it will help be a better mom and student. Eating breakfast will help be more focused and get more done in my morning classes. Becoming deeper emotionally will help build better relationships and better me as a mom. Becoming more whole as a person I realized is not just changing the one big obstacle in life it is the many little things that make the big difference in the end.